Monday, September 25, 2006

Nameless and faceless children of Mumbai!!!!!!!

For the last 4 years, almost everyday, I take a bus to reach my college. Since I am fairly punctual, I always end up catching the same bus. This means that the conductor of the bus and some of the random people of the bus are familiar with me.

En-route to college, is a municipal school. I am guessing that their timings match with my college timings. Hence after certain stops the bus gets jam packed with school kids. And then the real fun starts. Every new sunshine would bring a new trick, gossip, facts, cricket scores and much more information from them to my ears.

One of the most noticeable things about this bus is the decibel level of these kids. It’s unbelievable!!! I would really like to see any self-acclaimed kumbhakaran trying to catch some sleep……………hehehehehheeh…it’s impossible!!!! And the screaming and shouting is often very interesting [only if you can understand their different accents].

The decibel thing goes like this. One kid, standing right behind the driver, would happily have a conversation with his friends standing at the rear end. A huge group of girls would be scheming to do something that they were obviously not meant to do and then they would realize that this very nosy guy, who was busy eavesdropping on them, overheard their entire plan. So then the fight would start, these girls versus the lone guy!!!! And its really not necessary to say that the guy usually got a healthy thrashing and none his friends would even attempt to help him out!!!!! And the conductor would be no less a tormentor. Everyday….mark my words…everyday he made the guys open their bags and show him their concession passes. Only then would the moron give them the tickets. I call him moron not because he asked for the passes…but because of him…I had to may times take in enough pushing and shoving of schoolbags and umbrellas, especially its sharp edges, on my shoulder and sometimes even on my face!!!!!

And the sizes of the kids………why I can swear by the fact that some of the kids are no even more than 3 feet tall but the bags that they carried were even heavier than the rest of the kids. Some of them are simply soooooo small that in a seat were 2 adults can sit…. but not very comfortably, I had the pleasure of witnessing 5 kids sitting comfortably on the seat…. and inviting the 6th one to join them. So now how small they are would be glaringly evident.

You see one way it’s actually great pleasure to see these kids make a huge effort to at least attend school. What quality of education do they receive is a very different story. But early in the morning when we all complain of not sleeping the whole night because the dogs were howling through out the night of maybe coz the AC was not working and many more reasons……………….never ever did I hear these kids complain about not getting enough sleep or dogs, cats, mosquitoes spoiling their sleep. Not even once. All that I heard was excited chatter, screams and fights.

In a way, I am actually very proud of them. I say this not because I ever taught them anything or had anything to do with them. I have seen them grow up…and yes they did grow very fast………they seem to have matured too. Some kids decided to bring with them their younger siblings, some faces I never saw again, some faces I could make out that given an opportunity would do splendid in the future, some faces told me that they were expert loafers, some simply wanted to get away for everyday life and going to school would give them that freedom, the list of reasons is endless……….but of course this is the list of reasons that I have thought of. It may not even come any way never to the real reasons. But nonetheless, these reasons are good enough for me!!!! It has actually become my hobby to associate a past with every new face that I can see and also their reason for being in that very space as me at that time.

I write this post because I feel their presence should be acknowledged in my life. These kids have provided me with entertainment and a lot of fodder to think about. Moreover, I fear that, with my graduating from the college, I might never get to see these kids progress beyond what I have seen them. The thought of not seeing new faces in the bus makes me feel bit nostalgic about my own graduation. The frequency of my traveling in that particular bus has diminished in this year, next year it will cease to exist.

So hear I take the opportunity to write about the kids, and if in some case I chose to forget them, this post would refresh me memory.
Farewell kidos………………
And never ever keep the volume down!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, September 24, 2006

New pics!!!!


The only reason and justification that i can give for this picture is that ...........
there was no electricity at home, no one was home, my cell was the only source of light.........and i was hoping that someone would atleast call me.........which goes without saying that did not happen!!!!!
But i simply love the pic !!!!!! Dont u???

Saturday, September 16, 2006

Does honestly have any value left????

It makes me wonder if being honest in this world is a burden or plain stupidity!!!!!

Or is it a virtue which should just be flaunted ignorantly......................it damn well confuses me!!!!

Monday, September 04, 2006

Random switches

Disclaimer…Kindly do not bother to read it if your highly frustrated.
Read it only if u wanted cheap entertainment from a partial sadist, confused and disoriented person


The realization did come…but I often refused to acknowledge it. I didn’t not want to give the feeling a power to govern a part of my life which I had so force filly kept aside, locked up without ever planning to take it out.

It made me feel as a very different person. Without any bag-baggage. Without any reason to even look back once and think about all that I have done, the mistakes that I have made, some knowingly and some unknowingly.

Often being in a state of denial is the best way to deal with the situation……….unfortunately it applies only for the person concerned and not for those who around them. Same is the case with me. I had hoped the transition would happen without me realizing it and without much effort. But its not so!!!!!
The transition is THE most difficult part. And acceptance of the transition is a very different story altogether. A territory, which is practically untouched. The path of acceptance, which is very dreadfully, is the only one left yet it is somehow unacceptable…………..

Life has come a full circle for me!!!! First the fact that we had to manage first year kids [they were actually kids, with extremely juvenile behavior and a huge splash of attitude added to spice things up] and then the ganapati days!!!!!!!

Reality did come crashing down on me!!!! First the realization that I have grown up. Secondly, the shock of the kids, the generation gap [this sounds over-exaggerated but its soooo true]. And thirdly trying hard to come to terms with the fact, again this year, that the person who you loved and worshipped and respected so much has gone and will never come back even if u dream that it would eventually happen one day!!!!!!!!

I cant put my thoughts in any order. Cant think of ways of not relapsing back in the past when I clearly know has no relevance now, coupled with the fact that people around me have truly moved on. But still I am trying to put it past me.

At this point of time, I cant let go of my past, my present is very uncertain and my future is what I am too scared, nervous and optimistic and yet very uncertain off!!!!!

So the solution of my problem [ I never went looking for a solution but it was presented to me nonetheless ] came very simply from a very dear friend with whom I had a little heated conversation…………..just 1 sentence from my friend and now…I am cured!!!!!!!! Well almost partially………….maybe till next year that is!!!!
And yes…someone plzzzz talk me out of it………….this was said by me……here is da answer……….total brute force I say……………
Actually u no what…u need a good kick to get you out of this mode of urs. You scare me to death with all this idiocy……………
Worked for me wonderfully!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!