Its been a long time since i posted stuff............actually more than a month!!!!!!
December has been such an eventful month...........renovation of the house and the pains associaed with it!!!!!............. practically no work in coll [ actually there is a lot to do but dont know where to start!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ].................postponing of submission but giving it neways..........the very badly done model and the efforts or rather the wasted efforts and fun behind it............kalyug the movie, simii roy, rahul, comments,the tiffin ka dhakkan...............then comes the famous and controversial site visit to madh island.........beautiful homes in the hands of the most unhygenic, despo and filthy rich ppl.............the ride to kanheri caves, fighting over who will drive rasika's car, rasika's car itself!!!!!!!!! , the car's 1st gear, fogetting keys in the car and locking the door, playing in the playground till we all got sun-burned!!!!!!!!!
and then the next site visit to wockhart............the damn services of the bldg, loosing my WALLET!!!!!![ how could i !!!!........but thts a diff post altogether!!!!! ].......................the trek to MAHULI which i completed [ i will devote a new post for it]................my first trek..........and icing of the cake.........................I GOT BACK MY LOST WALLET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thts again a new post.....................................
its a real good finish to a year which was in some way not so good and sometimes bearable...............if things go this way..........my life rocks.!!!!!!!!!!!!.................surely
Friday, December 30, 2005
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
Believing is wht i can do.....only momentarily
I never believed in fate or destiny or God, but today I want to.
I never believed in any event if my "logical" brain couldnt reason it out, but today my" logical" brain forces me to believe.........but i still dont want to......yet i have to and i will, i know tht for sure.
I never wanted to deal with my distant future, whats the point neways....wht has to happen will happen, i rather live and deal with my present................but still i cant ignore my distant future on the basis of my past and present.
I never believed in fate but i firmly believed in coincidences............
Its funny to see tht how a human manipulates his vocabulary to decide wht he wants to believe and wht he dosent...........everyone does it....and if u claim u dont...............then ur not a thinking human being..................
This is exactly wht we all do........me included.
I have just realised that i knowingly or unknowingly share this weird and messed up equation with my brain and conscience. I have always denied fate and destiny. i saw no reason to believe it. It never fitted in my thinking.
Today, this eqaution is altered. I cannot ignore facts. Facts, so true and so unimaginably intertwined tht I can no longer deny it. My brain accepts it without doubt, but my conscience still has two-minds abt it.
I am too confused , no doubt abt tht. But confusion helps sometimes. It is helping me .............now.......to sort out my reasons for believing and not believing.
I never believed in fate or destiny, but today, i want to believe it.
And i mean each of the word i have written.
Of GOD, i still dont know..........maybe the realisation of HIM being there would come to me someday.......till then i would believe in a powerful force.........my conscience.....which is my GOD!
I never believed in any event if my "logical" brain couldnt reason it out, but today my" logical" brain forces me to believe.........but i still dont want to......yet i have to and i will, i know tht for sure.
I never wanted to deal with my distant future, whats the point neways....wht has to happen will happen, i rather live and deal with my present................but still i cant ignore my distant future on the basis of my past and present.
I never believed in fate but i firmly believed in coincidences............
Its funny to see tht how a human manipulates his vocabulary to decide wht he wants to believe and wht he dosent...........everyone does it....and if u claim u dont...............then ur not a thinking human being..................
This is exactly wht we all do........me included.
I have just realised that i knowingly or unknowingly share this weird and messed up equation with my brain and conscience. I have always denied fate and destiny. i saw no reason to believe it. It never fitted in my thinking.
Today, this eqaution is altered. I cannot ignore facts. Facts, so true and so unimaginably intertwined tht I can no longer deny it. My brain accepts it without doubt, but my conscience still has two-minds abt it.
I am too confused , no doubt abt tht. But confusion helps sometimes. It is helping me .............now.......to sort out my reasons for believing and not believing.
I never believed in fate or destiny, but today, i want to believe it.
And i mean each of the word i have written.
Of GOD, i still dont know..........maybe the realisation of HIM being there would come to me someday.......till then i would believe in a powerful force.........my conscience.....which is my GOD!
Saturday, November 19, 2005
Missed B'day wishes...............
The phone suddenly rings...................picked by the one who is nearest to it...............and yippe............its for me!!!!!!!!!!! Finally someone is calling me...............
The reciever is yet to be handed to me and i am informed tht Akshata is online...........here is my reaction as i almost run and trip over the bed to snatch the reciever..............
Akshata???....did he say akshata???...wow......i was wondering how many days more do i have to try and call her in Manglore and listen to tht stupid message of the no. being disconnected.........
Disconnected???!!!!!.............wht the hell!!!!!how can she disconnect the number and not inform me...........IS IT RELLY AKSHATA online?????...wow....wht luck!!!!!!
Hope she is well!!!!!.....but i am suppose to be angry with her...............yes i keep forgettin...........how could she do this to me!!!!! Of all her friends she chose me!!!!! WHY!!!??????..............neways..............atleast she has called now.
Thnk god she has called............i thought she was unwell or dead [ jokingly ]............or has she eloped.....i hope not!!!!!!.............but she cant do this to me!!!!!!!! ..........
its relly funny but all of the above mentioned thoughts were played in my head in the same order............wow!!!!!we girls can think and feel so much in so less time...................actually to be precise the diistace between me and the phone took me only 5 sec. max to cover...........so i hope the speed of thought and the change in the topic is completely noticed and appericiated here!!!! LOL
After the ususal how r u???..... and all tht crap, begins the real fun!!!!! here it is............a very heavily edited and sensored version of our conversation...................
Manasi: [ angrily.......atleast forcefully tryin to bring it in the voice ] Sal@@, i have been trying ur no. for the past week at all possible hour of the day,even ur mom was trying ur cell............tht stuppid dabba of urs is meant to be kept on so tht we can reach u whenever we want and PLZ dont switch it of..................yap yap...... blah blah blah..............
Akshata:......yap..yap..yap....blah...blah..... arre range nahi thee na.......had gone to this place place na [ for some vague reason, actually she had told me the reason...........but whtever.... :P ] isliye range nahi thee aur phir................yap....yap....blah....blah...............................
Manasi:[ kaisi ban rahi hai jaise ki kuch galti hi nahi hui hai...........actually i should be even more angry with her.......wht attitude] ya, ya, whtever.................Akshata u know wht.............i am damn angry angry with u coz u didnt call me on my b'day.....................why did u do such a horrid thing..........and tht too on my 21 st b'day............
Akshata:[ wht the hell!!!!!! ].............aare par maine...........but.....no........aaree...........
Manasi:[ seriously man.........i am very hurt and dissapointed..but why is tht angry tone of mine subsiding.....shit must do somethnig abt it.......i HAVE to be angry ] u know wht everone called............all of my friends, even some of long out-of-contact junior coll frnds also called................schoolfrnds...........chat frnds.............everone called............and not u!!!!!!why did u do this akshata????..............i was so angry and lets not forget i still am.........
Akshata:[ why is she yappin.........and wht the hell is she talkin?????...........wht rubbish is this???......some kind of a joke kya????..chup kar aur meri bat sun... ].....aareeeeeee...........but i had called u!!!!!!!!!!!
Manasi:[ seriously wht rubbish is this!!!!!] wht rubbish................no!!!!!!! u hadnt!!!!!...........
Akshata:[ will she shut up and listen???!!!!! ] aare baba ha.......i had called u....actually i had set the alarm for midnight so tht i can call u...........and i remember tht i had....i had wished u a happy b'day and u had said thank u but u jus hung up on me...........
Manasi: [ she has the guts to come up with some shit story..........i dont believe her!!!.....or should i?? but had she called me?!?!?!....no re she hadnt..........otherwise would have spoken with her for an hour.............i am now 100% sure tht she hadnt called......but such an incredible story.......am sure she must have spent half a day makin it up!!!! ]..noooooooooooooo..................u had not called at 12 o clock.................only 3 ppl had called..................of which i didnt recieve the second call...............and the remaining ppl were singing for me and then we chatted.......must have spoken o them for like 15mins each...................so bottomline..................u didnt call!!!!!!
Akshata:..........but i had................
we both later on concluded tht akshata had actually called on my b'day...............but......but........she hadnt called me............she had dialed someone else's no. and had wished tht person..............and imagine the person had accepted the wishes.............how ridiculous!!!!!! :D :P
i was still laughin abt this whole incident.............. she is the only person who can pull of such a stunt.................god!!!!!! wishin someone else on someone else's b'day.....................and the most amazin thing is tht she is entertained by a very sportin person at the other end of the line.................hehehheheh
some words of advice for u................never attempt to call me or neone else OR sign a document OR commit OR give away nething if ur in a deep slumber...............the consequences can range frm being hilarious [ like this one ] to disasterous................also never accept a lift frm a person who claims to know how to ride a kinetic but actually is not accoustumed to it..........another big disaster...........i hope u agree......................
i hope u read this...............i would love to read ur comment...but leave "nice" comments only :D :P.........let the unpleasant ones be reserved for our next telephonic conversation..............so long girl!!!!!!!
The reciever is yet to be handed to me and i am informed tht Akshata is online...........here is my reaction as i almost run and trip over the bed to snatch the reciever..............
Akshata???....did he say akshata???...wow......i was wondering how many days more do i have to try and call her in Manglore and listen to tht stupid message of the no. being disconnected.........
Disconnected???!!!!!.............wht the hell!!!!!how can she disconnect the number and not inform me...........IS IT RELLY AKSHATA online?????...wow....wht luck!!!!!!
Hope she is well!!!!!.....but i am suppose to be angry with her...............yes i keep forgettin...........how could she do this to me!!!!! Of all her friends she chose me!!!!! WHY!!!??????..............neways..............atleast she has called now.
Thnk god she has called............i thought she was unwell or dead [ jokingly ]............or has she eloped.....i hope not!!!!!!.............but she cant do this to me!!!!!!!! ..........
its relly funny but all of the above mentioned thoughts were played in my head in the same order............wow!!!!!we girls can think and feel so much in so less time...................actually to be precise the diistace between me and the phone took me only 5 sec. max to cover...........so i hope the speed of thought and the change in the topic is completely noticed and appericiated here!!!! LOL
After the ususal how r u???..... and all tht crap, begins the real fun!!!!! here it is............a very heavily edited and sensored version of our conversation...................
Manasi: [ angrily.......atleast forcefully tryin to bring it in the voice ] Sal@@, i have been trying ur no. for the past week at all possible hour of the day,even ur mom was trying ur cell............tht stuppid dabba of urs is meant to be kept on so tht we can reach u whenever we want and PLZ dont switch it of..................yap yap...... blah blah blah..............
Akshata:......yap..yap..yap....blah...blah..... arre range nahi thee na.......had gone to this place place na [ for some vague reason, actually she had told me the reason...........but whtever.... :P ] isliye range nahi thee aur phir................yap....yap....blah....blah...............................
Manasi:[ kaisi ban rahi hai jaise ki kuch galti hi nahi hui hai...........actually i should be even more angry with her.......wht attitude] ya, ya, whtever.................Akshata u know wht.............i am damn angry angry with u coz u didnt call me on my b'day.....................why did u do such a horrid thing..........and tht too on my 21 st b'day............
Akshata:[ wht the hell!!!!!! ].............aare par maine...........but.....no........aaree...........
Manasi:[ seriously man.........i am very hurt and dissapointed..but why is tht angry tone of mine subsiding.....shit must do somethnig abt it.......i HAVE to be angry ] u know wht everone called............all of my friends, even some of long out-of-contact junior coll frnds also called................schoolfrnds...........chat frnds.............everone called............and not u!!!!!!why did u do this akshata????..............i was so angry and lets not forget i still am.........
Akshata:[ why is she yappin.........and wht the hell is she talkin?????...........wht rubbish is this???......some kind of a joke kya????..chup kar aur meri bat sun... ].....aareeeeeee...........but i had called u!!!!!!!!!!!
Manasi:[ seriously wht rubbish is this!!!!!] wht rubbish................no!!!!!!! u hadnt!!!!!...........
Akshata:[ will she shut up and listen???!!!!! ] aare baba ha.......i had called u....actually i had set the alarm for midnight so tht i can call u...........and i remember tht i had....i had wished u a happy b'day and u had said thank u but u jus hung up on me...........
Manasi: [ she has the guts to come up with some shit story..........i dont believe her!!!.....or should i?? but had she called me?!?!?!....no re she hadnt..........otherwise would have spoken with her for an hour.............i am now 100% sure tht she hadnt called......but such an incredible story.......am sure she must have spent half a day makin it up!!!! ]..noooooooooooooo..................u had not called at 12 o clock.................only 3 ppl had called..................of which i didnt recieve the second call...............and the remaining ppl were singing for me and then we chatted.......must have spoken o them for like 15mins each...................so bottomline..................u didnt call!!!!!!
Akshata:..........but i had................
we both later on concluded tht akshata had actually called on my b'day...............but......but........she hadnt called me............she had dialed someone else's no. and had wished tht person..............and imagine the person had accepted the wishes.............how ridiculous!!!!!! :D :P
i was still laughin abt this whole incident.............. she is the only person who can pull of such a stunt.................god!!!!!! wishin someone else on someone else's b'day.....................and the most amazin thing is tht she is entertained by a very sportin person at the other end of the line.................hehehheheh
some words of advice for u................never attempt to call me or neone else OR sign a document OR commit OR give away nething if ur in a deep slumber...............the consequences can range frm being hilarious [ like this one ] to disasterous................also never accept a lift frm a person who claims to know how to ride a kinetic but actually is not accoustumed to it..........another big disaster...........i hope u agree......................
i hope u read this...............i would love to read ur comment...but leave "nice" comments only :D :P.........let the unpleasant ones be reserved for our next telephonic conversation..............so long girl!!!!!!!
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
Asha Bhosle..a Living Legend
On 11th November frm 8am till 11:30am, i spent a good 3.5hrs completely mesmerized by "INDIAN MADDONA IN TENNIS SHOES" tht is........ Asha Bhosle!!!!!!!!!! It was a experience which i cannot express in words. Her interview had aired on the radio and tht day i made sure i was up at 8 am waiting for the legend to come on air.......live.I relly thank RADIO CITY 91 FM......for doing this when i was at home or else i would have missed it.
This beautiful and soulful voice, has helped me finish my most borin submission, helped me go through a bad experinece of chicken pox, has helped me stay awake nights together, has made me laugh, cry, dance and also get nostalgic. I do not remember when had i first heard her voice. But whenever it was , her voice and the emotions in it, have definately grown on me. God, i luv all of her songs.....right frm classics, old film songs, ghazals, marathi songs, classical based ones........and not to forget her very famous cabret [ read it as a combi of asha bhosle and helen........wht a pair!!!! one is a dancing queen and the other signing queen ] .Truly a verastile and a very down-to-earth singer. Team up Asha with Rehman and its a feast for all the music lovers.
There was a very cute question asked by Archana [ RJ who was hostin the show ] .She had just asked Asha Bhosle abt her relation with Helen and the songs she sang for her. And then came the question........
" Ashaji, aapne helenji ke liye itne gane gaye, jin main dance ya cabret hote the.........toh main yeh pochna chahungi ki kya aap bhi dance karti hai ????!!!!!!!!!!! "
The answer was the very cute and very innocent dimpled laugh ...which is Asha Bhosle's trademark....and she politely declined..................But i would say this is not true..............a person would have to be a very gifted dancer if such songs have to be sung...its just not clear to me how come she say tht she does not dance!!!!!!!!!............i, myself do believe tht she is a excellent dancer...................... try and imgaine a person singin "piya tu ab toh aaja" and " dum maro dam " and all those songs without groovin to the beats or the melody....... impossible i say........ :D:D
If there was nething i would ask for then it would be this and only sing...............let me sing !!!!!!
God, i wish i could sing!!!!!!!!!........not like her but atleast a little......... i have come to conclude tht singing is truly a gift u have to be born with...........consider urself extremely lucky and blessed if u have been gifted with the abilty to sing......
i have always wondered how good it would feel to think of musical notes in ones mind and heart and also sing those notes loudly [ exactly the way u have intended them to be ] l
............for urself and others.............
if anyone of u can explain this feeling to me plz do!!!!!! i have never been able to feel it.
This beautiful and soulful voice, has helped me finish my most borin submission, helped me go through a bad experinece of chicken pox, has helped me stay awake nights together, has made me laugh, cry, dance and also get nostalgic. I do not remember when had i first heard her voice. But whenever it was , her voice and the emotions in it, have definately grown on me. God, i luv all of her songs.....right frm classics, old film songs, ghazals, marathi songs, classical based ones........and not to forget her very famous cabret [ read it as a combi of asha bhosle and helen........wht a pair!!!! one is a dancing queen and the other signing queen ] .Truly a verastile and a very down-to-earth singer. Team up Asha with Rehman and its a feast for all the music lovers.
There was a very cute question asked by Archana [ RJ who was hostin the show ] .She had just asked Asha Bhosle abt her relation with Helen and the songs she sang for her. And then came the question........
" Ashaji, aapne helenji ke liye itne gane gaye, jin main dance ya cabret hote the.........toh main yeh pochna chahungi ki kya aap bhi dance karti hai ????!!!!!!!!!!! "
The answer was the very cute and very innocent dimpled laugh ...which is Asha Bhosle's trademark....and she politely declined..................But i would say this is not true..............a person would have to be a very gifted dancer if such songs have to be sung...its just not clear to me how come she say tht she does not dance!!!!!!!!!............i, myself do believe tht she is a excellent dancer...................... try and imgaine a person singin "piya tu ab toh aaja" and " dum maro dam " and all those songs without groovin to the beats or the melody....... impossible i say........ :D:D
If there was nething i would ask for then it would be this and only sing...............let me sing !!!!!!
God, i wish i could sing!!!!!!!!!........not like her but atleast a little......... i have come to conclude tht singing is truly a gift u have to be born with...........consider urself extremely lucky and blessed if u have been gifted with the abilty to sing......
i have always wondered how good it would feel to think of musical notes in ones mind and heart and also sing those notes loudly [ exactly the way u have intended them to be ] l
............for urself and others.............
if anyone of u can explain this feeling to me plz do!!!!!! i have never been able to feel it.
Sunday, November 13, 2005
Long ques, real bad luck but good entertainment
Its relly very amusing tht when u have to stand in long que for any work, the que u are standing in is the slowest one to move. Or ur que would be filled with such idiots tht they would try to give half- filled or completely incorrect forms to the person sittin on the other side.
Or there would be a huge argument / discussion abt some smartass who has tried / already has broken into the line.The bottttom line is however tht, u have always ended up standing in such doomed / jinxed ques.
Today, I had the honour of standing in such a boring and non- movable line. Actually it was not such a bad experience standing in the line [ actually it was never a line, more of a zig-zag shaped human formation ] . But the sad part was tht, even though i spent 3-4 mins trying to calculate which line would move a little faster, i eventually ended up in the line which was practically not movin for the next 10 mins.
People came and went past me.........but there i was standing exactly in the same place where i was for the last 10mins. But then , those 2 characters ahead of me made me laugh and smile [ the smiling and laughin was done in my head and not loudly.....would have looked like a idiot otherwise ].
Firstly, i couldnt understand their language.......so it was even more fun to try to estimate wht topic were they chattin on.............secondly, i was able to catch some of the words said by them.......here they are..............and let me warn u........these words are completely irrelevant ......and it seems tht r not connected..........actually i can come up with some relly weird stories [ read Bollywood / Mollywood potboilers] if these words are forcibly joined together....makes a heartly laugh though....the words then...
Free main good entertainment. Enjoyed it a lot. Its good to meet such characters once in a while.
Or there would be a huge argument / discussion abt some smartass who has tried / already has broken into the line.The bottttom line is however tht, u have always ended up standing in such doomed / jinxed ques.
Today, I had the honour of standing in such a boring and non- movable line. Actually it was not such a bad experience standing in the line [ actually it was never a line, more of a zig-zag shaped human formation ] . But the sad part was tht, even though i spent 3-4 mins trying to calculate which line would move a little faster, i eventually ended up in the line which was practically not movin for the next 10 mins.
People came and went past me.........but there i was standing exactly in the same place where i was for the last 10mins. But then , those 2 characters ahead of me made me laugh and smile [ the smiling and laughin was done in my head and not loudly.....would have looked like a idiot otherwise ].
Firstly, i couldnt understand their language.......so it was even more fun to try to estimate wht topic were they chattin on.............secondly, i was able to catch some of the words said by them.......here they are..............and let me warn u........these words are completely irrelevant ......and it seems tht r not connected..........actually i can come up with some relly weird stories [ read Bollywood / Mollywood potboilers] if these words are forcibly joined together....makes a heartly laugh though....the words then...
- Chandigarh
- Ministerji aaye the na
- biwi ke bhabhi ka pehechanwala
- rasteke andar kachra..........waaater shoor tage hai naaaa
- busy life.........50,000 ka ooooooffer aaya tha
Free main good entertainment. Enjoyed it a lot. Its good to meet such characters once in a while.
Friday, November 11, 2005
Wasted vacations and diyas
Relly have wasted a perfectly good vaction and a nice long study tour........actually this topic is better if left alone.........i simply start feelin more depressed.
I seriously dont have anything to write abt......actually i can write abt every second i spent during diwali....each moment has given me something or the other but.........the thought of those moments spent also depress me...........so forget it.
But on a lighter note, i have always loved Diwali.......not for the sweets, gifts, crackers or all tht but for the simple tradition of lightin the lamps............those diyas have always made me feel secure and calm.....suddenly every worry vanishes, everything becomes serene and calm. Even thought diwali is all over i still lightt tht diya in my house just because i like it............i wonder how many things we do in our life just because we like it. This , accordin to me is a perfectly good reason to follow whatever u want to do.
I seriously dont have anything to write abt......actually i can write abt every second i spent during diwali....each moment has given me something or the other but.........the thought of those moments spent also depress me...........so forget it.
But on a lighter note, i have always loved Diwali.......not for the sweets, gifts, crackers or all tht but for the simple tradition of lightin the lamps............those diyas have always made me feel secure and calm.....suddenly every worry vanishes, everything becomes serene and calm. Even thought diwali is all over i still lightt tht diya in my house just because i like it............i wonder how many things we do in our life just because we like it. This , accordin to me is a perfectly good reason to follow whatever u want to do.
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
May Day
Finally have done it!!!!!!! Created my own space....and it feels real good.........today bein a very hectic day...i had still decided to take time out a create my own space........
Actually, I was in a real dilema for a few weeks now.....should i start bloggin???............wht would i write????.........is all the effort worth it!!!!!...........will i be able to stick to it???...........and the most importantly......... wht would be the TITLE!!!!!!!!!!!
I thnk May Day [ thts accordin to the dictionary ] means start of spring..........i hope it would work as a metaphor for my life ahead!!!! I sincerely hope so!!!!!!!!! [ this a bit out of context but it would be intrestin to read this entry 1 year later and decide if the title worked for me or not ]
Neways, loads of work 2 finish but i am glad tht i have started bloggin............i really am!!!!!!!!!!!!
Actually, I was in a real dilema for a few weeks now.....should i start bloggin???............wht would i write????.........is all the effort worth it!!!!!...........will i be able to stick to it???...........and the most importantly......... wht would be the TITLE!!!!!!!!!!!
I thnk May Day [ thts accordin to the dictionary ] means start of spring..........i hope it would work as a metaphor for my life ahead!!!! I sincerely hope so!!!!!!!!! [ this a bit out of context but it would be intrestin to read this entry 1 year later and decide if the title worked for me or not ]
Neways, loads of work 2 finish but i am glad tht i have started bloggin............i really am!!!!!!!!!!!!
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