Life..........

I and Deeksha sat outside the closed gala, waiting for dear Mr. Bindra to come and open the place. We had to measure that place and work was to be quickly completed.

Both of us were miserable. Me, coz I missed my morning walk and she, coz it ws way too early for her. And to make matters worst our dear Mr. Bindra seemed to have just woken up after we called him from outside the gala.

So now, what do we do???? We had to kill time. The answer was simple. But a packet of Gems and kill the time.

So both of us armed with packet of Gems each sat outside the gala and were relishing our early morning treat.

And then comes a man in front of us and ask us money coz he has not eaten in 2 days and he wants money only for 1 vada pav.

We both refuse.

We end up thinking of the same thing................we never give money to these people coz we dont no who really needs the money and who is going to miss use it.

I always used to think as a child that life is so unfair!! Why do some people have to struggle for one small portion of meal ??

As I grew, I knew that I would never give money to them coz the money I would be giving away is not even really mine. Its my dad's. He has slogged for it and I am not gonna give it to anyone who is simply asking me for it.

But now, I am even in a bigger dilema. I still agree with my earlier statements that life is unfair for them. But now this sentiment even applies to me.

Because today even if I chose to give a person something that I can afford to, I simply dont know who really needs it. Inturn, I maybe depriving even the needy.

That day, refusing to give that man money was miserable thing to do. But I had made my choice.

I could not eat my Gems after that. The small round things which were giving me such pleasure were now reduced to object which I was mechanically consuming coz i had nothing to do.

Life is so unfair........either which way you see it.

And i am definately not proud of my choice.