Disclaimer…Kindly do not bother to read it if your highly frustrated.
Read it only if u wanted cheap entertainment from a partial sadist, confused and disoriented person
The realization did come…but I often refused to acknowledge it. I didn’t not want to give the feeling a power to govern a part of my life which I had so force filly kept aside, locked up without ever planning to take it out.
It made me feel as a very different person. Without any bag-baggage. Without any reason to even look back once and think about all that I have done, the mistakes that I have made, some knowingly and some unknowingly.
Often being in a state of denial is the best way to deal with the situation……….unfortunately it applies only for the person concerned and not for those who around them. Same is the case with me. I had hoped the transition would happen without me realizing it and without much effort. But its not so!!!!!
The transition is THE most difficult part. And acceptance of the transition is a very different story altogether. A territory, which is practically untouched. The path of acceptance, which is very dreadfully, is the only one left yet it is somehow unacceptable…………..
Life has come a full circle for me!!!! First the fact that we had to manage first year kids [they were actually kids, with extremely juvenile behavior and a huge splash of attitude added to spice things up] and then the ganapati days!!!!!!!
Reality did come crashing down on me!!!! First the realization that I have grown up. Secondly, the shock of the kids, the generation gap [this sounds over-exaggerated but its soooo true]. And thirdly trying hard to come to terms with the fact, again this year, that the person who you loved and worshipped and respected so much has gone and will never come back even if u dream that it would eventually happen one day!!!!!!!!
I cant put my thoughts in any order. Cant think of ways of not relapsing back in the past when I clearly know has no relevance now, coupled with the fact that people around me have truly moved on. But still I am trying to put it past me.
At this point of time, I cant let go of my past, my present is very uncertain and my future is what I am too scared, nervous and optimistic and yet very uncertain off!!!!!
So the solution of my problem [ I never went looking for a solution but it was presented to me nonetheless ] came very simply from a very dear friend with whom I had a little heated conversation…………..just 1 sentence from my friend and now…I am cured!!!!!!!! Well almost partially………….maybe till next year that is!!!!
Read it only if u wanted cheap entertainment from a partial sadist, confused and disoriented person
The realization did come…but I often refused to acknowledge it. I didn’t not want to give the feeling a power to govern a part of my life which I had so force filly kept aside, locked up without ever planning to take it out.
It made me feel as a very different person. Without any bag-baggage. Without any reason to even look back once and think about all that I have done, the mistakes that I have made, some knowingly and some unknowingly.
Often being in a state of denial is the best way to deal with the situation……….unfortunately it applies only for the person concerned and not for those who around them. Same is the case with me. I had hoped the transition would happen without me realizing it and without much effort. But its not so!!!!!
The transition is THE most difficult part. And acceptance of the transition is a very different story altogether. A territory, which is practically untouched. The path of acceptance, which is very dreadfully, is the only one left yet it is somehow unacceptable…………..
Life has come a full circle for me!!!! First the fact that we had to manage first year kids [they were actually kids, with extremely juvenile behavior and a huge splash of attitude added to spice things up] and then the ganapati days!!!!!!!
Reality did come crashing down on me!!!! First the realization that I have grown up. Secondly, the shock of the kids, the generation gap [this sounds over-exaggerated but its soooo true]. And thirdly trying hard to come to terms with the fact, again this year, that the person who you loved and worshipped and respected so much has gone and will never come back even if u dream that it would eventually happen one day!!!!!!!!
I cant put my thoughts in any order. Cant think of ways of not relapsing back in the past when I clearly know has no relevance now, coupled with the fact that people around me have truly moved on. But still I am trying to put it past me.
At this point of time, I cant let go of my past, my present is very uncertain and my future is what I am too scared, nervous and optimistic and yet very uncertain off!!!!!
So the solution of my problem [ I never went looking for a solution but it was presented to me nonetheless ] came very simply from a very dear friend with whom I had a little heated conversation…………..just 1 sentence from my friend and now…I am cured!!!!!!!! Well almost partially………….maybe till next year that is!!!!
And yes…someone plzzzz talk me out of it………….this was said by me……here is da answer……….total brute force I say……………
Actually u no what…u need a good kick to get you out of this mode of urs. You scare me to death with all this idiocy……………
Actually u no what…u need a good kick to get you out of this mode of urs. You scare me to death with all this idiocy……………
Worked for me wonderfully!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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And thirdly trying hard to come to terms with the fact, again this year, that the person who you loved and worshipped and respected so much has gone and will never come back even if u dream that it would eventually happen one day!!!!!!!!....
hey if i cud ask u...whom were u referin 2 in tht line :-)...
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