I generally dont feel so insecure abt nething...........but today is a diff story altogether. I was , untill a few minutes ago, strugglin to write a synopsis for my thesis presentation tht would happen tomm.......THESIS???....TOMM???..........but i am only in 4th yr!!!!!!............i still have to finish this year and then worry abt thesis in 5th yr..............but not anymore.........
Its relly scary when i and my batchmates start talkin abt thesis.........the project is in a too early stage to make me nervous but the thought tht i would be levain my insitution behind and steppin out..........tht is scary........the thought implies just soo many things which have suddenly become unspeakable for me........
Does it mean tht it is an end of a very carefree and funfilled times?? and the fact that such carefree times will possibly never come , in this form, again i our lives????
Or do i assume tht we have much better things waiting for us outside and those would eventually compensate our nostalgia????
It only seems like yesterday tht i had entered the insitution and had come to terms with so many things tht i was unaware abt.........so many diff value systems and ideas........struggling to fit in.........yet remain diff...........yes.....it only seems like yesterday........sometimes i wish tht when i would wake up tomm, i would still be in 1st yr and the memories of the past years would be wiped clean to accomodate new ones.........i still wish.... if only i was possible........[sigh]
Just typing out my thesis synopsis has started affecting me..............maybe i am preparing myself for the days to come............days filled with more responsiblities, work and wht not......
So, in the meantime..........let me make a small promise to myself..........henceforth, let me live my life to its fullest extent...........love each and every moment tht comes my way............njoy and learn whatever i can................JUST LET ME LIVE MY LIFE!!!!!!!! Tht's it!!!!!!
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why did you think of the road so early...gal???
reading this has made me so concious of the fact that i would be saying bye to my college life in 5months time and would stare reality in its face.
the feeling is so scary... thinking of .... oh oh no no no ... me not going to think mch of it... not now atleast.
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