Did u ever feel.............this way

Did u ever feel intimated by the person u almost thought u knew so well because of their unexpected reaction to a very important issue ? Did u ever feel scared by tht person's view abt the matter??? Did u ever anticipitate such, very disturbing reactions from them?? Did u ever feel tht ur perception of the person is so wrong tht all this while u have imagined them to be someone diff.........................so many questions yt life goes on..

Life had been fun for a long time. It was too good to last for a long time, i should have realised.This is how it all started.

I thought tht i knew my friend so well. It has been sooooo many years tht i knew my friend. I always thought i knew how my friend would react to any situation. Alas, I was wrong and i realised i was sooo wrong.

Over some issue, I realised i was talkin to a complete stranger who i didnt even realise. Someone so diff from the person i knew tht i didnt recgnise this person. Nor did i want to . So diff tht i just wanted to run in the opposite direction as fast as possible. I was soo wrong in judging tht person. But wht i missed was tht here i was happily judgin the person.......aaaaahhaa.............big mistake!!!!

No one likes to be judged!! I definately dont. Then why should i judge anyone else...........not my right!! But its true tht we have a perception of anybody and everybody tht we meet. A picture is played in our mind abt the person everytime we address this particular person. Isnt tht judgin?? I dont no. Maybe my perception abt this person had become so strong over the years tht a sudden change in it was not accepted by me. I just could not digest it. And it has for god-only-knows-wht-reason become such an issue for me alone tht i had to get it out.

Maybe i am now ready for a change in the perception or shall we say makeover of tht person's image in my head. None of my friend's reaction would hit me so hard now. I am so sure. But i am not sure i like it. Actually i hate it. I like the earlier image better. Because tht was how i imagined my friend would be.

My old friend.

Power equations............a generation awakens

Ever wondered why people wid power often misuse it and use it for their own convinience???. This tendency is widely evidenet in every field, its everywhere , spreadin like a disease. A 3 year old has definately bein affected by it......so how can we be left behind. We have all come to a point where sometimes we r so immune to this fact tht we seldom realise it. So reacting to it is never an opinion. Its only when we start suffocating tht we realise tht something has to be done......................

For once, i can safely say tht times may be changin. A few days ago i came across a news coverage of a political party floated by the IITans.................paritrana.........tut tut......things are changin. It was a very intrestin and refreshin piece of news as the party members ( actually they were IIT grads who had also done their post-grads frm abroad......and i wass to stunned to even remembr which univercitys...) were highly educated and very sensible ppl.............( the words higly educated are very alien to Indian politics....but how their education would help them without practical knowledge is a diff issue )..........

I thought it was a slightly "yuva" inspired move or it may even not be ( i am sure the thought of floatin a political party was not born over-night but must have been firmly rooted in their mind for years ).............but considerin the fact tht movies like "Yuva", " Rang De Basanti" are made which tackles the issue of a new and wiser generation waking up from its slumber is a sure indiaction of the preferences of the youth. These movies are suppose to be typical masala bollywood movies....... tailor made to make profit...........yet they r appretiated by the 'urban thinkin population' and the rest of the movie watchin population.........this is a clear indication of the fact tht things would change..............the power equations are shiftin............newer and better times wait ahead for us and the future generations.......alas, our wait has come to an end!!!!!!!

Happy Valentine's Day

Happy Valntine's Day

yeah i do like this day...........the streets r filled with very amusin ppl or rather coupls and even more colourful ballons, flowers and all tht mushy stuff in violent pinks and purples.....luv to see it........

I had a gr8 day today with my class but on the flip side....i lost my good friend to her boyfriend.........guess its all ok..........its only 1 day......but i have always spent this spcial day with her.............

nwys girl, its ok if u have ditched me (jus kiddin and i no tht u would read this).............but in any case.............

....................................HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U................................................

and yes......i wanna hear all the details abt today...in detail !!!!!! .........hhehhehe!!!!!!!

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i cant think of tile for this post............so feel free to suggest one for this..................

neways..............today i had deciced to bunk coll and say at home and WORK. And i had even seriously started workin.......i was makin good progress.........and then my mom tells me tht ur classmate just called.............and u have to attend coll or else u wont be able to give the jury on thursday.....................PHULEEZZZZzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wht rubbish!!!! does our princi think we r babies and he can make us think and work accordin to his leisure and pleasure.................or is it the fact tht power makes man do real crazy stuff [ this logic applies to all involved in this situation.........read as the chose ones ] ..............it was the most stupid thing to have happened.......................and why me............the day i choose to bunk....all this melodrama takes place..............

it always happens to me...........when i bunk, faculty gets pissed and i have to write a sick test paper twice or i wont be allowed in class.............i bunk and the faculty gets pissed and i am made to come to class to do work which is even not of this year....................

it is a very serious problem ..........for us and everyone in general...........there r reasons we bunk...and instead of firing and penalising the students for bunkin, the faculty should try and understand the reasons behind bunkin.............we bunk coz somethin suck....and wht sucks is wht has to be dealt with.............callin all the students and threatening them is definaely not the solution................

our coll claims tht they r very liberal with the students???........r they relly????..


they claim tht faculty members can be addressed by their first names..........how cool....how liberal...........butt r they relly????

they may be liberal in whtever context they choose...............but i feel cheated coz my basic democratic right of chosin is mercilessly snatched frm me...............and i was under the impression tht this is a democratic country.........seriously PAUL..............grow up.........learn to call spade a spade......accept the fact tht 5th year WD sucks today [ as in 4th yr] ..... it relly sucks..............no point pretendin................WAKE UP before its too late..........the CAA tried to arouse u frm ur slumber............. but if u choose to ignore it again............then there may be a huge problem ahead......................i feel it...........wake up man..........

Exam Time...................

Today, at around 11am, i was sitttin in the conference room at my coll. Waitin for my jury to happen . A bit nervous, a bit haressed. I was getin impatient o start with my jury and finish it well. However, the profs were in no mood to hurry. The 2 profs were busy discussing how the builders make more money and how we or architects dont get a share of it [ i agree with it ;P ] and where does the CEO of this very renowned company sit and how his older brother has still not vacated the office even after the split and all tht blah..............when suddenly out-of-the-blue-moon, my friend sitting next to me glanced down at her watch. She smiled, looked up and whispred to me tht ..................."u no wht, my bro's biology pracs must have started by now.......he is givin his HSC ..........." the smile was still intact.............but the smile itself had a very diff story to tell....

I suddenly realised tht i was smiling too..........for some vague reasons i knew why we both were smiling at each other.............tht smile had a diff story to tell..........a story which i am sure all of us have experienced as the first person............the story of any freakin board exam.....

It transported me back to a very unceratin period in my life...or for the matter any students life...........the board exams r loomin close by, the pressure is mountin, the test series have to be completed, more and more notes, chapters, books, etc have tto be scaned and stored in the brains.......ur appetite suffers, u suffer, u either can sleep at night or u r extremely sleepy through ou the day and night, hence, u suffer again......and the day finally dawns...............its a nightmare.....completely........

The 11am heat outside made me remember all this and suddenly i had goosebumps.....the smell in the air suddenly told me tht years ago i was also writin a similar exam, same time in some place.............the heat outside very cruelly reminded me tht i still have to finish revising my derivation and intgration formulae [ another nightmare]..............the sudden pang in my stomach reminded me tht THIS IS IT............I have been studying for this day for years, i have to give my 100%.......................i still can feel the butterflies creatin a havoc in my stomach.

But today was a diff day..............its all over for me [ atleast for now].........i am through it...............i have SUCCESSFULLY managed to overcome this hurdle and move ahead in life............its a bright, new day for me..........

I smiled to myself.........a smile which was reassuring and even more comfortin..........suddenly i didntt feel nevervous anymore.................instead i had made u my mind tht..................today is a gr8 day!!!!!!!